I’ve seriously considered dropping out, too. I promised myself that I would quit when I felt like blogging was doing me more harm than good; that is how I feel right now.
I think this is your white guilt talking, and white guilt makes everything feel awful. Instead of turning your back to it, face it and learn how to utilize the privilege that you have in a way that is liberating for yourself and others. Not to be glib, but therapy works.
Which isn’t to say “Poor me.” I am still here. I haven’t been a victim of anything except my own poor decisions. But it is to say something that a lot of us feel: This is not good. And I don’t know what to do to fix it.
Recognizing that there is a problem is the first step. It’s cliche, and it’s true. No one but yourself is going to be able to fix this for you. You’re asking the right questions… of yourself and of others. It’s a hard row to hoe, but keep at it, even when it hurts.
